the study of alchemy, homecomings, and best friends.

This weekend was incredibly uplifting and enlightening.

I went home on Friday to attend my hometown's homecoming game. Such an ironic event - homecoming. I realized after several minutes of seeing people I didn't really want to see, that I didn't feel "home". It felt very awkward seeing people who hadn't graduated, or worse, those who had and aren't doing very much with their lives. Sad.

The next part of the night, I enjoyed some quality "roof time" with my best friend. Sitting on top of his house, we caught up on several weeks from being a part. As I've mentioned before, I consider my best friend to be my brother. It is so hard to go from being attached at the hip to living in different schedules. But this night made it worth the while - we talked for hours catching up.

Saturday was all about PLU. We brought Reece up here to hang out all night and have some fun. This was by far the highlight of my entire weekend - ping pong, music, hanging out, and spending time with other lutes.

Saturday night was interesting. After all the festivities of the day, everyone went to bed. Reece and I went outside and continued some of our conversation from Friday night. We talked until five in the morning. This conversation was the best I've ever experienced with my best friend. We laughed about the fun we had all day. We cried about the distance, the pain of being alone, and the emotions involved in letting it all out. I walk away from last night a changed person, ready. Thank you brother for that night. It means the world.

In my dreams class we are studying how alchemy can be applied to the interpretation of dreams. (Which, by the way I have to write a paper on in about twenty minutes).

The first stage of alchemy is lead. the nigredo.

Lead is:
dirty. heavy. worn down. garbage. rotten. wretched.

In a dream, it is represented by darkness and fog - being confused and not having a way out. Depression and uncertainty.

The second stage is silver. the albedo.


Silver is:
Clean. White. Sterile. Glossy.

In the dream world, this is described as the moon - you know the moon is there in the darkness because it gives you enough light to see. There is hope.

The third and final stage is gold. the rubedo. 


Gold is:
light. power. sex. beauty. sunrise. passion.

When in a dream, this becomes a pivitol point. It can represent all things good. But it can also burn out, and become less valuable. Thus, sending it back to the first stage of lead.

This topic is incredibly facinating to me. I have found ways to apply it to my life - what I've been through and which stages those events took place in.

In the end I feel certain:

That my brother is an amazing human being, and will always be there to lift me up.
That my life is worth more than bad days and complaints.
That my home is now found here at PLU, no longer in Enumclaw. Here I have family :)